Midnight Wanders

Whose here never procrastinate? Come on, who doesn't? All you lazy asses in front of your laptop or lying down on your comfortable bed scrolling through 9gag. I know you. Well to be fair, I do it too. On a regular basis. I guess every student knows how it feels to procrastinate. When its time to do your homework, suddenly everything else looks very very much more interesting than writing down the answer of 2+2, or maybe for art students, peeling an orange looks very much more important than drawing a perfect circle on an art paper. Well for me, when I was in the middle of my thesis, suddenly I get a clean bathroom, perfectly made bed top, shiny floor, and a new recipe to brag about all while I have nothing to add to my long abandoned chapter 2. We've all been through that, or maybe we are in the procrastination mode right now. I am. Now this is somewhat I feel important to share about procrastination. How to make it as a helper to get things done. Why is procrastinatio...

Gue suka banget sama subuh. Pokonya selepas jam 3 pagi sampe sekitaran jam 5 itu gue suka banget. Bisa jadi karena dulu waktu kuliah sering banget begadang sampe pagi ngerjain tugas yang gak kelar-kelar demi nilai yang baik. Terus juga pertama kali ikut produksi film beneran, syutingnya selalu mulai dari subuh. Sampe tidur pun gue gak apus makeup gara-gara waktu istirahatnya cuma 3 jam setelah seharian muter-muter. Waktu dijalanin, ya itu ngerjain tugas ataupun ikutan syuting, rasanya berat. Capek. Gak pengen untuk ada di sikon itu lagi, gak mau lagi nahan-nahan ngantuk dan kepaksa bangun subuh gara-gara tugas. Tapi kalo dirasa-rasa sekarang, semua kecapean dan kekurangan tidur gue itu jadi terasa menyenangkan banget. Ada rasa juga pengen balik ke masa-masa itu. Pengen ngulang lagi. Emang pasti capek bakal ngikut, tapi after feelnya itu loh yang bikin nagih.  Dan disinilah gue sekarang, abis ngerevisi power point buat presentasi. Dan ya, itu tugas kantor. Tapi entah kenapa gue...

I miss him so much eventhough we still meet every weekend night but it doesn't feel enough. I miss our silent moment together, just staring at each other with smiles on our face. I miss our togetherness with nothing to think about, no chat and rants about work. Just us. I know things will never get back to what it used to. It's all different now. What I should do now is adapting to my whole new environment and condition to make the most out of it. So I can make new beautiful mamories with everyone I love. But I miss him so much in particular, I'm crying for my loneliness without him, even when I hug him in person. I just miss us so much....

I'll be working on monday!! Woop woop! I am sooo very much excited!! I really wish I can do very well. I'll be in probation for 6 months and after that if my performance is great I can be an official employee! Yihiii.. But, as every new phase on my life I'll be crying like bitches for 3 months or so every night until I can fit in. But this time it's just getting worse. Gans and I are having a different day off. Mine is on saturday & sunday, while he gets the busiest on those 2 days and get a day off on monday. I really am grateful for the job I have right now. It's everything I've been dreaming on forever. But I just can't get the fact that I can't see Gans as often as we used too. I know we're both in hunts of our happy ending while reaching for our own dreams. It just feels so aching. I know we'll be alright, cause I just know that he's the one and there would be no one else. I might sound cocky but I'm a saggitarian, s...

Hari ini Gans lagi seneng gara-gara ada kerjaan di kantornya yang baru seminggu. Terus kalo kesenengan entah kenapa dia jadi rada bloso. Kita cuma lagi duduk aja becanda-becanda, terus dia nyanyi "Trabel trabel trabel, trabel trabel trabel Trabel trabel trabel, friends." Tapi pake nada abang tukang baso masi-mari sini. Dan dia kekeuh kalo dia lagi nyanyi lagunya Lenka. Sampe disetel lagunya dan gak ada nada yang kaya dia nyanyiin tetep kekeuh kalo itu lagunya Lenka. Bukannya aku jahat, Gans. Tapi itu dari liriknya aja udah salah ditambah kamu nyanyinya pake nada abang tukang baso -_-"